Thursday, December 23, 2010
Thy Remote is my Comfort I shall NOT want
I've got a dirty little secret. Do you want to know what it is? Shhhhh, and lean in closer. I've been ignoring God. And to think I've been doing it during the most precious season too. As most of you mama's know, being in full swing of motherhood on top of the holiday season has brought out the lazy side of me. The days begin before I'm even out of bed as I referee from under the sheets between the match of iron wills amongst my youngest two. Before I'm dressed my first daycare kiddo is shoved through my front door. The rest of the day is spent keeping kids either interactively busy or in time outs and my evenings are spent helping my oldest with homework and organization... So when nap time arrives I fall into bed with the T.V. remote in hand, ignoring that inner tug to pick up my Bible or pray. All I want to do is zone out on mindless shows like Grey's Anatomy.
I've prayed for the desire to want to read my Bible, I've asked for forgiveness of ignoring God's tug to spend time with Him. I've tried to discipline myself to read, only to fall asleep five minutes into reading. Each day that passes, His voices grows smaller and I grow CRABBIER. What's the big deal some of you are asking? It's not like I'm ignoring my kids while watching T.V. or facebooking. In reality, it is a big deal. It's about pressing into God and learning what He has in store for me. It's about lifting up my cares, troubles, anxieties, praises and letting God deal with it. It's about growing into His likeness and allowing Him to mold me. It's about serving Him, after all He sent His Son to for me... It's about being obedient to His call. How can I expect my children to be obedient to me if I cannot be obedient to Him in something so small, so simple?
The other day as I fell onto my bed with the sounds of snoring come from my little ones, I heard Him say, "That remote gives you more comfort that you let me give you." OUCH! So with that said, I am asking for accountability as I swear off TV for the rest of the holiday season and get back into the habit and WANT of spending time with God.
It may not seem like a big deal to you, however as a baby Christian, I have much to learn. In the scriptures Christ talks about each of us having been made by the hand of God for a purpose and each of us has our own race to run. When I am not praying or reading my Bible daily, I am not walking in the spirit with God. Instead I'm walking in my humanness and allowing my spirit to detach itself from Christ. I'm slowly starving my spirit to death. What kind of example am I setting for my children and what kind of discernment will I have if I haven't the strength or the connection with God? So with that I leave you with a poem from Marlene Bangull's Blog.
The Twenty-third Channel
The TV is my shepherd,
I shall want more.
It makes me lie down on the sofa.
It leads me away from the Scriptures.
It destroys my soul.
It leads me in the path of sex and violence
for the sponsor’s sake.
Yea, though I walk in the shadow
of my Christian responsibilities,
there will be no interruption,
for the TV is with me.
Its cable and remote control -
they comfort me.
It prepares a commercial before me
in the presence of my worldliness.
It anoints my head with humanism;
my coveting runneth over.
Surely laziness and ignorance shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house
watching TV forever. Amen.
(Visit Marlene's blog at http://writehisanswer.wordpress.com/)