Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Don't Ever Grow Up
Time needs to freeze, it needs to stop! My little girl is growing up faster than I had ever imagined. It seems like yesterday I received the news sitting at the women's clinic that I was 17 and pregnant. As scary as it was, I was enchanted with her smiles, her ringlets of auburn brown hair. The way she would snuggle up to me and follow me all around the house. Even when we battled over the cleanliness of her bedroom, she still wanted to hang out with her Mama.
Fast forward to the age of 11. No longer is there a little girl with big brown eyes asking to play with mommy. Before me is a 5 ft 6.5 inch tween, with feet bigger than mine and moving on into the 6th grade. She isn't wearing princess dresses anymore, nor is she wearing stove pot mittens to eat her grilled cheese. She is now texting on her phone, making plans for the weekend with friends, hiding in her room all the time.
I'm scrambling to find and hold onto the moments we get to spend together. While I know she has to grow up, I want to be a part of it, not a parent watching from the distance. So last night, I spent extra time with her painting. She is quite the artist and creates beauitful pictures with color while I use words. For a moment, I was sitting with my little girl again. Before she went to bed, I hugged her and asked to her to never grow up, to which she replied, "But Mom, I have to." So for those of you who are moving into the teens years with me, let's embrace our child and walk beside them during these next few years as they grow up.