Wasn't it Easier

Rough draft of Wasn't it Easier, about an experience I encountered awhile ago.

Guess I really did it this time,
Did some things I can't speak of,
Over time, let myself slip from what was mine.
And at night I live it all again.


Wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If I had known then what I know now.
Guess I let everyone down,
seeing that unmistakable look of disappointment.


Wasn't it easier in my new found ways?
Wasn't it easier in my new creation days?
Wasn't it beautiful in my grace filled days?
When everyone looked at my brand new heart,
had a clean slate and a fresh start.
When everyone believed in me.


Life was so brand new, and nothing couldn't tame this flame.
It burned brighter than those who walked the way for years.


Guess I really did it this time
left myself in front of my warpath,
after the cold stares, gossip, hearing them laugh.
Lost my balance on this tight rope
lost all hope of trying to get it all back.




Picking up the pieces but I can't make 'em fit.
Praying these words, being washed clean, sitting at His feet.
When will they see that who I am is not where I've been?
Who I am is not what I did.
Everyone has secret struggles and fights
But mine played out in sight.


Wasn't it easier in my new found ways?

Wasn't it easier in my new creation days?
Wasn't it beautiful in my grace filled days?
When everyone looked at my brand new heart,
had a clean slate and a fresh start.
When everyone believed in me....and I did too.


Then He says "It's okay, hush now, you're gonna be alright.
Every day is brand new and I won't give up the fight.
Life is a tough road, and your heart is pure in my eyes.
It doesn't matter what they see.
You're forgiven in my sight."


"Time heals all wounds, your mistakes won't be remembered.
You'll have new Septembers
It's okay, you're ignited heart is still burning bright to Me.
Who you are is not where you've been, who you are is not what you did.
You're forgiven in my eyes.
Now let it all go, lives change like the weather.
Though you feel all alone in that pew, I'm with you.
I hope you remember that today is never too late to be made brand new.